Let’s rewind a bit, and go back in time…
A bunch of my cousins and I, all grew up together in the same compound in, Antipolo City. That place was our wonderland – our own piece of Narnia. There were waterfalls, so many trees, a pool…. It was all so simple. But the simplicity made it perfect.
Unfortunately, things in this earth will pass away, and our lovely compound had to go. Right now, they’re remodeling it into a bunch of townhouses which will soon be ready for other people to move-in to. And well…
After the many years spent away from Antipolo, I thought that seeing it go – seeing my beautiful home go – would be okay. But it isn’t, and I don’t think it’ll ever be. All the memories spent in that place… Memories of jumping off the waterfalls, splashing into the pool, watching the stars while lying on the roof, hearing the wind move through the trees, and looking at the shadows dance as we would sit by huge bonfires; the way the grass would smell right after it rained, and the way it would when the sun would dry it up during the summer. Late nights with flashlights and tents and midnight snacks, singing and dancing under the rain, the way it felt being just a few steps from people who are now miles away….
What I hate the most is that we weren’t able to document much of the stuff we did. I hate how I wasn’t able to share that place with most of my friends. I hate the fact that I wasn’t able to climb up the waterfalls just one last time before it was torn down. I hate the fact that there are less trees and the fact that other people are going to live there when I want to, so much.
I hate the fact that it’s gone.
BUT…. I will always and forever cherish the memory of that place, and the fact that we did have our own bit of paradise in the middle of a busy world – our own wonderland, our own Narnia.
I strongly stand for the fact that, for me, I HAD THE BEST CHILDHOOD EVER, with some of the best people in the world. And even if some of the things that we did were totally outrageous, I will always love our trekking adventures, and baptismal rituals for puppies, the snakes we found, the baby bats we took care of, the apes that one of us thought we were (HAHA), the ants we would terrorize, the bunny I sat on, the trees we hung from, the swing some of us fell from, and mud baths, and obstacle courses, and all our gajillion clubs.
And that’s probably the reason why even if I love my new home already, I will always be so homesick and heartbroken, because I loved this place. And every single time I think about it now, I start to cry, because I can’t seem to let it go.
I’m not angry, or upset. Just sad that we couldn’t save the place. :( The saddest part is that I know that I will probably never find another place like this again. And if I were to find such a place, it would never be the same.
So, as I was moping around, reminiscing and talking to God, I was suddenly reminded of this passage which says:
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. 2 My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. 4 You know the way to the place where I am going.” (John 14:1-4)
God is preparing a place for all of His children. And if He can give me something like the wonderland I used to live in, then how much more can He have waiting in store for me? :) 1 Corinthians 2:9 says,
”What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him.”
Amazing! And that is what awaits us in heaven; all of those who love Jesus!
“Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, bright as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb through the middle of the street of the city; also, on either side of the river, the tree of life with its twelve kinds of fruit, yielding its fruit each month. The leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations. No longer will there be anything accursed, but the throne of God and of the Lamb will be in it, and his servants will worship him. They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. And night will be no more. They will need no light of lamp or sun, for the Lord God will be their light, and they will reign forever and ever.” (Revelations 22: 1-5)
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” (Revelations 21:4)
There are so many other verses in the Bible about how our real home will look like. Because after all, we are just visitors on this earth. This is not where we belong. (John 15:19) So, even if I am desperately wanting to turn back time to see my Narnia again, I will wait patiently and ever so much more excitedly, for what God has waiting in store for me, and for everyone else who loves Him. And may we all help each other to remember that, yes, we may be in this world, but never shall we be of it.
“You don’t have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body.”
― C.S. Lewis